pick up a guitar and wail.
make a funny face that isn't ugly.
drive through the snow without fear of hitting anything.
eat without guilt or regret.
stop worrying about money.
fast forward to the fall when I'll be in Germany and London.
rewind 10 years and redo everything with more bravado, that inlcudes mistakes.
believe that people are generally good, and not manipulative or selfish.
take some of the pain and discomfort my family has known and carry it around a while.
listen to great music all day and not be jealous.
be really honest with everyone, myself included.
stop wondering "what if"...that time has passed.
appreciate what I do have.
realize I might be better off the way I am.